I COME FIRST

I come from a very huge family. Am the last one in a family of eight kids. I grew up with my cousins and nieces in the same household so sharing of things and caring about others came automatically. My parents ensured that whatever we got was distributed amongst all of us. That upto date when I cook, I have to call a friend over so that we can share the meal I prepared together.

If you know me in person you'll definitely see the traits of caring, compassionate and always giving out a hand to others. Well if you're like Osman, it's all good and that means you had a proper upbringing plus you have a nice personality; the problem comes in when you put others before yourself.

Well,I have been doing that for the longest time. I would rather lack than seeing someone else suffer. And even when I was broke I'd go the extra mile of getting someone a loan using my name. (Needless to say i had to pay back all this money without getting a payback or refund)Well if you take a seat and look at it, that's just SICK. And it's either am too soft or just decided to invest in my stupidity. Which I think I was both and am trying to get out of that.

I won't lie, I've been using money to get myself liked with the guys around me. Ever since I was young my parents would give us pocket money as a way of teaching us how to handle money. Whenever I got it I used to share it out with the guys around me. Which would leave me broke before I got the next round of share. This made me not sure whether if guys liked me for me or whatever I could get them.

Am not asking you to be mean with whatever you have. All am saying is that if you are not in a position to help someone, why over burden yourself to the extent of you being left in a dilemma? You need to learn how to put yourself first. How will the action that you are about to make have an effect on you? If it will be leaving you broke in the next three days then why go through with it? That shows how much you don't care about yourself and the need for you to love and put yourself first in whatever situation you are in.Remember you come first.

Many people are out there to abuse your weaknesses. They are not to blame for that, the only thing you need to learn is how to place yourself in a position where no one takes advantage of you. Learn to say no if the situation is not benefiting you. As much as I'm talking to you, am equally talking to myself. Cause am learning in my life I COME FIRST!

EUROPE UNLEASHED

We touched down at Schipol Airport in Amsterdam at 7AM (GMT +2).If I use the word big for the airport it will be an understatement, since it is among the top fifteen biggest airports in the world. Immediately we came off the plane, it was chilly and your city boy (direct translation of born tao😂) was dressed in nothing but a tee, even after my mum had called me twice to make sure that I had a warm cloth in my carry on bag.(Am not a mama's boy) I still didn't take the advice seriously thinking the weather wont be that harsh. Well, shock on me. Thank God one of my friend's Lutfiyah had carried an extra soul of looking out for others and gave me her Maasai shuka to wrap around myself. Finally I could take in the scene of the airport with the proper awe I had in me.

We went to a Starbucks at the airport and had a frappuccino who's cup was signed with my name on it. Now that assured me that I was truly out of the country, since we didn't enjoy the great Starbucksback in our mother land, Kenya. We waited for approximately two hours before we checked in to our connecting flight to France.

In another life am sure I would have been born in France or better yet if we were to pick nationalities I'll definitely be a French citizen. (Am actually considering doing my post graduate there but that's a story for another day)In short I was not ready for the beauty of France.

To be honest for a minute I was scared of travelling alone without my family because with the few times I've gone outside the country, am always with my family, but I guess we have to grow up at some point. We were picked up and headed to check in to our hotel ready to tour Europe.
The street art from Charles de Gaulle airport to our hotel located in Bagnolet still within Paris was out of this world.

The next day we went to a wax museum Musée de Grévin which had waxed celebrities who looked like humans. Fun fact about the celebrity Wax models were made exactly like their humanbodys. The height and measurements were exactly the same. They had the exact measurements and height with their real human counterparts. The celebrity models were from Holywood actors Angelina Jolie, Brad Pitt, musicians Kary Perry, Michael Jackson politicians Barrack Obama, Macron, Nelson Mandela,without forgetting the religious leaders the Pope. While posing for the pictures with the famous celebrities, my friend Lutfiyah got the shock of her life when one of the waxed models moved and touched her. Talk about screaming, Africa is still well represented. I swear if it was me I would have peed on my self why lie, needless to say maybe she actually did.😂

Hold up! Let's fast rewind I give you all muchene about my crazy friends. Immediately the girls saw our driver they couldn't stop fanning themselves, remember the temperature wasn't hot but they were sweating. Apparently according to them he was one of the sexiest men they had come across. And they started flirting shamelessly . But African children where did you all go wrong?😂 You all need to quench yourselves.

The tour to Eiffel Tower was mind blowing. The queue getting in was the craziest line I had ever seen. But apparently to them that was not a high number compared to other seasons which could actually get worse. Personally I couldn't picture it getting any worse.

Italy was nothing but bliss, am still in thoughts of how some part of venice was built on top of the Mediterranean sea. We took a ride on a gandola (funny bit during rush hour they equally experience traffic, guess we should  call it sea jam instead of traffic jam)which are the boats used to transport guys to different parts. Everything about the venice grand canal just felt out of this world. The sound of the sea and the free neutral air. Two words for it, it was mind boggling.

Rome came with a lot of Italian speaking, we went to a production town, where movies, series, fashion shows and many other visual entertainment shows were created. The name of the place was Cinecitta . Many International movies from Hollywood had been shot here. The place had different settings. From the century the Roman's ruled a better part of the world to the transformation of the new world which was and is done in huge green screens.
If I give you too much details on the other countries I went to you won't go to Europe and I seriously do want you to go and tour and see in person how beautiful and cultural it is. Now with all that shared lemme go get my Huduma namba😉 (Am yet to understand why we need it)

OPINION ENTITLEMENT

"It's too short I can't wear that, what will guys think." Andy says looking in the mirror with distress. "It's fine, are you planning to be a nun? Fuck whatever they think. Look at how it's doing justice to your ass. Yaaas, now you're wearing that" I tell her with an air of finality as I move to the kitchen to get some water.

Am gonna address this blog to you as much as I'll be talking to myself cause this is something I've been  having an issue with for a while. Everyone has an opinion about something. You have an opinion about this,that or the other thing same thing to me. Well if we know each other on a personal level and you have a positive or negative opinion about me, well NEWS FLASH. I equally have one about you, as stupid as it sounds it's like a title for tat game.(You know this is true as much as you'd like to deny it)

One thing we need to understand, someone else's opinion doesn't make a count in your life unless  they're paying your bills; sh*t that's my parents cause they still gat me 😂. Here's the thing, personally everything that I do my folks are usually fine with it, actually it's my mum who encourages me to go out and party (S/O to my mum❤️)cause for a minute there, damn! Actually my whole life until last year, I used to pretend that am a grown up. I'd even  go to an extent of lying about my age cause most of the guys whom I was hanging out with were old so that I won't be judged based on my age. (Son you were a disgrace to your fine self)  Finally I decided to drop that stupid act and started acting my age before I ended up with an anti-stress pill prescription while am still f*cking 20. (Breathes out heavily)

Be you, if you wanna wear anything to make you feel good and appreciate yourself do it. You wanna get into a new venture but you're scared you'll fail, well look at it this way if you fail you won't be the first or the last man in history to fail. Many will be up in that line soon as you're done failing (that statement should receive an award for the worst word of encouragement this year😂)

All am trying to say is be you and don't let what others think of you or whatever you wanna do scare you. Remember you too have an opinion about different things that they (judgers) might be doing that doesn't add up to you but you're still fine with it. So be kind to yourself and enjoy happiness.

So this is another calling to more rowdiness this year ( and they ain't ready). Cause we're young dumb and broke( yes everyone knows when they're broke.😂 To me I consider the version I am right now to be extremely broke and it's okay cause that's my opinion😉)

Pssssst HAPPY NEW YEAR ❤️